Nigel, MND and me. 9: Sentenced to the chair

The strident whine of the riser-recliner motor heralds that Nigel is on the move.   

‘Bathroom?’

He nods.

‘Excuse us,’ I say, placing my glass on the coffee table.  ‘Won’t be long.’ 

Not true, we’ll be an age.   No longer can anything be achieved quickly. 

‘Shall I wait until you get back?’ asks Mel, who holds us enthralled in the midst of an animated tale involving superglue and a lock.

‘God no! Carry on.’  This story is too riveting to impose a halt.  Chances are Mel will sweep us towards the spectacular crescendo before we’ve even left the room. 

‘So, when nobody was about and all was quiet … ‘

Paula obligingly refills glasses as, difficult as it is to concentrate when captivated by this fascinating fable, I slide the sling across Nigel’s back and beneath his legs.  Hopefully got it the right way up this time.   New at this, my manual handling skills are tentative and clumsy.   It looked so easy when the OT did it.

‘Can we help?’ ask Derek and Tom, almost in unison, the less than polished performance clearly a cause for concern.

‘No don’t worry.   It’s easier with one.’  Another untruth.   However, two people who don’t know what they are doing are twice as bad as one.

‘So what happened when the police arrived?’

‘Well …’

Grunting indelicately with the exertion, I maladroitly manoeuvre the mobile hoist towards what the kids have dubbed ‘Dad’s control centre.’

Captain Casson is pleased now that I didn’t wait until he was dead to refurbish the lounge.  He can command operations from his perfectly equipped post, sited with regimental precision so all essentials are within reach and from where he can oversee everything and everybody, without the bother and irritation of even turning his head. 

‘You’re joking!’

The chair, flanked by two side tables bearing the whole shebang of necessities such as man tissues, toothpicks, sweeties, medication, thermostat, fan, and an ever-present cup of tea, is on loan from the MND Association.  It is now one of the few places where Nigel feels comfortable and consequently, this is where he spends most of his day.

Just wish it wasn’t pink.  What is it with pink chairs?  Who the hell wants a pink chair?

‘And then … you won’t believe this …’

Avoiding the clamps that grip the edge of each table, the arm of one, holding his lap-top, the other, his iPad, and trying not to snag the wheels on the warren of wires that stretch like sleeping snakes towards their personal plug point in the den of extensions that litter the floor, I manage, at last, to get the thing parked and the sling attached.

‘Hurry up, I’m gonna piss meself!’  says Nigel, swelling the hilarity already present in the room, Mel’s sparkling saga having flounced fervently to its finale.

Agonisingly slowly, Nigel is lifted from the chair.

The laughter subsides.

Nigel hangs, suspended.   Dangling like a baby carried by a stork.    Defenceless.  Exposed.

Not long ago this man could swing swiftly and skilfully through scaffolding with the agility and athleticism of an ape.

Nobody speaks.

Somebody coughs.

Someone else sniffs.

An uncomfortable silence descends.

‘Does my bum look big in this?’

Raucous laughter erupts into the room, as Nigel’s perfectly timed one-liner tears through the tension bringing welcome relief to our grateful guests.

Good on yer, Nige.  Even now, as his condition worsens, his enduring sensitivity and unselfishness makes the rest of us feel better.

I lower Nigel into one of the four wheelchairs that form part of the ever-increasing catalogue of care kit that occupies space in our home.   The chairs have, or have had, their role to play in Nigel’s progressive disability.

This one, powered, compact and nippy, but not especially comfortable, is mainly used to ferry Nigel to and from the bathroom.   Having been provided by the wheelchair centre it would have been reasonable to expect the chap that demonstrated it not to shout at Nigel as if he was not only deaf but also stupid. I could only marvel at Nigel’s tolerance as he had the operational complexities of a joystick painstakingly explained to him.  Physical disability does not render a person retarded. 

Languishing unloved, banished to the gloomiest corner of the garage, covered in cobwebs and buried beneath junk, is the first and only manual wheelchair we ever bought.   With the confidence that springs from total ignorance we allowed this abomination of a carriage to accompany us on a long weekend to Brussels.   The chair is bewitched, compelled by demons to tumble into every pothole, fault and fissure – either that, or Brussels is the most wheelchair-unfriendly city in Europe. 

Or … perhaps my driving has something to do with it? 

Whatever the reason, this is when Nigel determined that his situation was indeed perilous. Subjected to the incompetence of others, however noble their intentions, is not something that he can bear.  The manual wheelchair has to go.

Apart from the fact that pushing a fourteen stone man up the slightest incline ensures half a stone of weight falls off you in a fortnight, I’m not at all sorry to see it exiled. 

A sporty, metallic blue, nifty little number also lives in the garage.  Bought mainly because of its boasting that it could effortlessly climb kerbs.  It lied.  Nevertheless, it has proved its worth by providing hours of fun as a serious contender in wheelchair races.   Sadly though, it has had its day and is now condemned to gather dust with its manual mate.  

All of which leads us to the ultimate in mobile chairs. 

‘I’m free!’ Nigel shrieks, hurtling down the lane on his way to the shop to buy a paper, as excited as a little kid dashing to spend his pocket money.   Perched atop his trusted steed – a shiny new, top of the range, can-do-just-about-anything wheelchair, he waves happily and heads off on a huge adventure.  

This chair can travel for fifteen miles; perform a perfect 360-degree turn on a tanner and assume numerous positions including a tilt and recline deep enough for sleeping.

Good as it is, further adaptations are necessary to meet Nigel’s exacting standards.  A made to measure upholstered winged back and headrest are commissioned along with two additional foam filled seats, four and six inches deep respectively.   

‘It cost more than our first house,’ says Nigel to absolutely everybody.  Proudly showing off his truly customised original lounge chair – a Queen Anne on wheels. 

For anyone unable to walk, a powered wheelchair is indeed liberating.  With the right equipment, disability need not be at all limiting.  

But MND is more than disability.  

As I watch him disappear round the corner, I smile at the degree of pleasure he will derive from this simple trip to the shop.  What am I saying?  He won’t just go to the shop.  If I know Nigel he will drive the chair up the steepest hill he can find to test how fast he can career down it.  When he’s conquered that he’ll see how sharply he can tackle corners without toppling.   He’ll drop it off the kerb into the road just to see if it gets back up.

He may very well head for the path alongside the golf course and playfully hail a former combatant to put him off his stroke.  He’ll think back to the day he got a hole-in-one on the par four, in spite of, or possibly because of, the hangover he was nursing. 

Possibly, he will head in completely the other direction, crossing the Spa Bridge into the centre of town.  His chair could very well earn its battle scars by engaging in a less than friendly joust with the myriad of menaces mounted on mobility scooters.   He might barge bullishly into stores, toppling tins, crashing into crockery and colliding into clothes.

He could even scurry to the Skate Park, riding the ramps before those trendy teens in a tantalising display of slick tricks and mighty moves. 

He’s bound to bump into old acquaintances and even encounter some new ones.  He’ll smile and share a joke, tell them his chair cost more than our first house, and add them to his ever-increasing circle of Facebook friends.  

If he comes across a gang of scaffolders erecting or dismantling a scaffold, he’ll laughingly tell them they’re doing it wrong.  They won’t be offended.  They’ll know him.  Every scaffolder does. 

He will do all this because he’s Nigel.   He will always be Nigel.   No matter what this disease does to him.

Bit by bit, MND will steal his body and ultimately, it will take his life.

But it will never quell the character in his bones, lure the laughter from his heart, or still the spirit in his soul.